In the Future
So now what?
My life. It had gotten too too complicated.
But, I love my life. And, I want to hold onto what’s important. What I will look back on and be proud of. Happy with.
To keep dear what is important and cherish what I love, something had to change. Something had to give.
In my grief last week – I had an epiphany. I find these are usually what are most fulfilling in life. Sudden, intuitive perceptions. They come on quick – sometimes just a flash, an opportunity. They make sense. Like a clearing. The path is right there – ohhh, of course! You have to be open to them. Listen to what you “hear” from the universe. Awareness. Pay attention and your Intuition can help guide your life in a positive way.
I had turned a corner. The path laid right out in front of me – I just had to follow it. Everything else can fall away and I won’t feel bad about it. Weird. Because the other path I took before was like I was in the trees and brush trying to hack away at finding the trail. It never ever came easily. Ever. It was always a struggle. The exhaustion from always wondering. I’m tired of feeling that way.
And, while I have really enjoyed the art I have made up until this point, I really didn’t know what the hell I was making it for other than the fun of it. It never felt really serious. Ever. Even when I was working commercially – in an office, in a studio, as a freelancer. It was always about the fun of it.
And, sorry, for me – that’s not enough. It has to be significant or what’s the point? I can find fun anywhere (hiking, biking, swimming, boating, spending time with friends, movies, reading, etc) – what I need is for my work to be important.
From this point in my journey, I’ve decided to do a 180 in my art. To make art around my life instead of pushing art into the cracks and crevasses of what’s leftover. I certainly feel more peaceful.
I hope you will enjoy the turn in my journey. My art will revolve in my life. It will complete it instead of compete with it.
I hope you are living a full life. Doing the things you love. Being with whom you love.
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